- This BEAUTY that we brought home from Guitar Center. It's like reuniting with an old friend after like....10 years? The first order of business was obviously "The Holy City".
- Playing AND singing "Stone Cold" so loud Joe can hear me from any location in our house.
- Painting my nails with a shade as close to my skin color as possible so that it dies gracefully.
- Strawberry sugar-free Jell-o. There's no way it's good for me but it's sugar free so.
- Scalp treatments, because dry shampoo is the worst
- Paper face masks that smell like coconuts and look like zoo animals.
- FAMILY VACATION. 33 DAYS.
- 9 Rounds! My goal for the month of June was to go 5 days a week. Everything hurts and I'm dying.
- Researching car parts I know nothing about and selling them on eBay so they're no longer taking up space in my garage. (I'll have to let you know how that goes..)
- The possible cruise we might possibly be taking later this year. Possibly.
- Taking 10 minutes to curl my hair instead of 30 because the "undone" look is in.
- Baby carrots.
- Basically every pair of running shorts sold at Walmart. Maybe I buy a pair every time I get groceries? I don't know?
- Tactfully telling coworkers to take their body-shaming conversations somewhere else.
- The. Handmaid's. Tale. Don't get me started.
- The LiketoKnow.it app. I was such a hater for such a long time and now I can't stop taking screenshots of outfits I'll never buy.
- Searching for new brands of swimsuits. Trying on swimsuits. Looking at swimsuits. Tracking down swimsuits I see on Instagram. Buying swimsuits. Buying more swimsuits.
- And finally: Meryl Streep Memes.
I know it's been a long time but I also know that it doesn't feel like it. It has been that long but in terms of life experiences, IT'S BEEN LIKE TEN YEARS.
I know that the general consensus would agree 2016 was not their year. On a really large scope, yeah, ok, it wasn't our proudest year as a country. A lot of sad, disappointing, and flat-out outrageous things went down. We weren't any less violent. We didn't find a way to live in perfect harmony. We didn't even remotely agree on who should lead us. I get it. 2016: we. are. over. you.
BUT.
When I look at my personal life and what this year brought, I can't help but be proud and feel incredibly #blessed. There were a few major things like HOLY SHIT I GOT MARRIED and it's been 7 months and I still don't actually believe I have a husband. (Married life is the bomb.com by the way. I get to live with my best friend and not have to ever do life alone again.) (Except when he's playing wii.) (Amazon makes really great shows.) (More on that to come).
Along with planning a wedding, I managed to:
go on a kick-ass honeymoon cruise to the Caribbean.
discover running, ran, and ran some more - which lead to a half-marathon(!!!).
turn our bachelor-pad house into a warm, comfy, roommate-free home.
went to a bunch of great concerts including ADELE. I SAW ADELE. THAT HAPPENED.
cut, like, 7 inches of hair off.
get surprisingly good at blackjack.
figure out what it means to love my body.
That last one, though. Let's talk about that. Because my whole life has been a continuous stream of diets and crashes and losses and gains and "no carbs" and "no cheese" and "no fun". Every time I failed at mastering a restriction, I became a little more hateful towards myself. I think about how I used to (and sometimes still) talk to myself and I just get angry. When did that become ok? And what good does it do to bully myself into being better? Because not only does it not work, it leaves behind a trail of pain. You can't hate yourself into loving yourself. If it does happen to motivate you enough to lose weight, you'll only be skinnier, not happier.
I'm not giving up on losing weight, I'm just giving up on obsessing about it. Growing a little older means realizing my health has to be everything, but I can be my size and run 13.1 freaking miles and live a freaking incredible life. I won't be reduced to my pant size any more.
A few things I've obsessed about instead of my weight?:
The podcast "My Favorite Murder"
Jane the Virgin, Mozart in the Jungle, Transparent, Mr. Robot
Also, HBO
Things No One Will Tell Fat Girls - READ THIS. Even if you're not fat. Even if you're not a girl.
Black skinny jeans (also, learning how to wear whatever the hell I want.)
Running in circles for miles at a time (AKA, the track at Southern) (did I mention I ran a half-marathon?)
All the makeup - There's no denying it, I'm a makeup hoarder. But this year was all about perfecting my technique, refining my routine, makeovers, talking about it 24/7, and of course, Jaclyn Hill
Finding the perfect breed for our first dog
Ashley Graham
Being a lame newlywed and spending a ton of time on the couch with my husband
Tacos on corn tortillas because are they even tacos if they're on flour ones?
The discovery page on Instagram
Getting enough coins to beat the next level of Solitaire Tri Peaks
My nephew, Ithaniel, the most magical 19-month-old boy that has ever lived and probably the reason I don't have room in my heart to love anyone else, and the fact that my sister is here in Chattanooga and I can see them as much as I want
So, I guess you could say I'm back.
I'll try to keep things simple, honest, and....frequent. Ish.
Thanks for stopping by!
-Mariela Marangella
I know that the general consensus would agree 2016 was not their year. On a really large scope, yeah, ok, it wasn't our proudest year as a country. A lot of sad, disappointing, and flat-out outrageous things went down. We weren't any less violent. We didn't find a way to live in perfect harmony. We didn't even remotely agree on who should lead us. I get it. 2016: we. are. over. you.
BUT.
When I look at my personal life and what this year brought, I can't help but be proud and feel incredibly #blessed. There were a few major things like HOLY SHIT I GOT MARRIED and it's been 7 months and I still don't actually believe I have a husband. (Married life is the bomb.com by the way. I get to live with my best friend and not have to ever do life alone again.) (Except when he's playing wii.) (Amazon makes really great shows.) (More on that to come).
Along with planning a wedding, I managed to:
go on a kick-ass honeymoon cruise to the Caribbean.
discover running, ran, and ran some more - which lead to a half-marathon(!!!).
turn our bachelor-pad house into a warm, comfy, roommate-free home.
went to a bunch of great concerts including ADELE. I SAW ADELE. THAT HAPPENED.
cut, like, 7 inches of hair off.
get surprisingly good at blackjack.
figure out what it means to love my body.
That last one, though. Let's talk about that. Because my whole life has been a continuous stream of diets and crashes and losses and gains and "no carbs" and "no cheese" and "no fun". Every time I failed at mastering a restriction, I became a little more hateful towards myself. I think about how I used to (and sometimes still) talk to myself and I just get angry. When did that become ok? And what good does it do to bully myself into being better? Because not only does it not work, it leaves behind a trail of pain. You can't hate yourself into loving yourself. If it does happen to motivate you enough to lose weight, you'll only be skinnier, not happier.
I'm not giving up on losing weight, I'm just giving up on obsessing about it. Growing a little older means realizing my health has to be everything, but I can be my size and run 13.1 freaking miles and live a freaking incredible life. I won't be reduced to my pant size any more.
A few things I've obsessed about instead of my weight?:
The podcast "My Favorite Murder"
Jane the Virgin, Mozart in the Jungle, Transparent, Mr. Robot
Also, HBO
Things No One Will Tell Fat Girls - READ THIS. Even if you're not fat. Even if you're not a girl.
Black skinny jeans (also, learning how to wear whatever the hell I want.)
Running in circles for miles at a time (AKA, the track at Southern) (did I mention I ran a half-marathon?)
All the makeup - There's no denying it, I'm a makeup hoarder. But this year was all about perfecting my technique, refining my routine, makeovers, talking about it 24/7, and of course, Jaclyn Hill
Finding the perfect breed for our first dog
Ashley Graham
Being a lame newlywed and spending a ton of time on the couch with my husband
Tacos on corn tortillas because are they even tacos if they're on flour ones?
The discovery page on Instagram
Getting enough coins to beat the next level of Solitaire Tri Peaks
My nephew, Ithaniel, the most magical 19-month-old boy that has ever lived and probably the reason I don't have room in my heart to love anyone else, and the fact that my sister is here in Chattanooga and I can see them as much as I want
So, I guess you could say I'm back.
I'll try to keep things simple, honest, and....frequent. Ish.
Thanks for stopping by!
-Mariela Marangella
Everything is.
My job: wonderful.
My family: bigger.
My fiancé....
fiancé.
I have a fiancé.
I have a fiancé?
Fiance.
My body,
my strong, resilient body.
My 26-year-old skin.
My ever-swollen feet.
None are what they used to be
and I think that might be ok,
(which is also different).
It's not that blogging became less important,
and it's not that I'm too busy.
I mean, I am,
but for some reason,
coming here
is different.
I've mistaken transparency for clarity
and when it mattered most I had neither.
I am madly in love
with an incredible man.
And I am experiencing a love
I didn't know existed.
It is unwavering.
It is forgiving.
It is patient.
I am both happy and stressed,
exhausted and excited.
because what is different is also familiar.
I still worry about timelines
but in the context of a wedding.
I make dinner most nights
but now I'm cooking for 2.
The last 3 times I cried
were because of overwhelming joy.
I find myself thinking 5 years down the road
(instead of the 5 years that have passed).
I'm a designer among designers,
a runner among runners.
I'm worried about savings
but also my manicure.
I listen to NPR
and I never go out to eat.
For being such unchartered territory,
such difference has been comfortable to navigate
and I am full of peace.
My job: wonderful.
My family: bigger.
My fiancé....
fiancé.
I have a fiancé.
I have a fiancé?
Fiance.
My body,
my strong, resilient body.
My 26-year-old skin.
My ever-swollen feet.
None are what they used to be
and I think that might be ok,
(which is also different).
It's not that blogging became less important,
and it's not that I'm too busy.
I mean, I am,
but for some reason,
coming here
is different.
I've mistaken transparency for clarity
and when it mattered most I had neither.
I am madly in love
with an incredible man.
And I am experiencing a love
I didn't know existed.
It is unwavering.
It is forgiving.
It is patient.
I am both happy and stressed,
exhausted and excited.
because what is different is also familiar.
I still worry about timelines
but in the context of a wedding.
I make dinner most nights
but now I'm cooking for 2.
The last 3 times I cried
were because of overwhelming joy.
I find myself thinking 5 years down the road
(instead of the 5 years that have passed).
I'm a designer among designers,
a runner among runners.
I'm worried about savings
but also my manicure.
I listen to NPR
and I never go out to eat.
For being such unchartered territory,
such difference has been comfortable to navigate
and I am full of peace.
i didn't spend my Valentine's day preparing for a night out on the town,
or even preparing a fancy meal at home.
i didn't buy a new outfit.
i didn't get new shoes.
heck.... i didn't even wash my hair.
(except for a quick trip to mall)
my first participating Valentine's Day was mostly spent in sweats,
preparing chicken soup and sleepy time tea
for my very sick boyfriend.
It turns out, Valentine's Day has nothing to do with what you do
and everything to do with who you have to celebrate it with.
In my case, I got to spend my day with a
kind,
funny,
gracious man,
who reminds me I'm his Valentine
every
day
and even through
headaches
and fevers
and nyquil-induced comas
made sure I knew how much I am loved.
If he had any idea the kind of Valentine's Days
I've tortured myself with
to arrive at this very moment in my life,
where none of the flowers and candy and dinners mattered
and I can truly experience a love worth celebrating,
I hope he'd understand that they were all worth it--
That I wouldn't change a thing about the past
because it meant getting here,
today,
to him.
or even preparing a fancy meal at home.
i didn't buy a new outfit.
i didn't get new shoes.
heck.... i didn't even wash my hair.
(except for a quick trip to mall)
my first participating Valentine's Day was mostly spent in sweats,
preparing chicken soup and sleepy time tea
for my very sick boyfriend.
It turns out, Valentine's Day has nothing to do with what you do
and everything to do with who you have to celebrate it with.
In my case, I got to spend my day with a
kind,
funny,
gracious man,
who reminds me I'm his Valentine
every
day
and even through
headaches
and fevers
and nyquil-induced comas
made sure I knew how much I am loved.
If he had any idea the kind of Valentine's Days
I've tortured myself with
to arrive at this very moment in my life,
where none of the flowers and candy and dinners mattered
and I can truly experience a love worth celebrating,
I hope he'd understand that they were all worth it--
That I wouldn't change a thing about the past
because it meant getting here,
today,
to him.
"For I know the plans
I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not
harm you. Plans to give you hope and
a future.
Hope. And a future.
Then you will call on me and come and pray to me and I will listen to you.
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
I will be found by you and will bring you back from captivity.
I will gather you from all the nations and places where I
have banished you and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you
into exile."
The struggle to ask for help is consistent with the struggle
to ask for forgiveness.
We are ashamed to admit we are not enough to do it on
our own.
We try.
We fail.
We then have to admit to God and to our egos that now
there are 2 wrongs:
the belief that we can without God, and what that has led
us to do.
Then we will call with burdens and mistakes and shames and all the wrongs
that were meant to be avoided
and He will hear every last one.
Then we will call with burdens and mistakes and shames and all the wrongs
that were meant to be avoided
and He will hear every last one.
It will take my whole heart to find Him, not a dejected, stagnant piece.
And when my heart finally surrenders itself entirely:
He has already promised to listen—what we need is irrelevant.
He has already promised to rescue—our condition could not
keep Him from bringing us back.
He has already promised hope and a future--Not an empty promise of someday, and not
just enough to satisfy now.
We will have the lasting peace that tomorrow is already blessed.
We will have security from the inconsistency of our captors.
We will have grace and rest and an abundance of love.
I got the job.
(!!!)
Just 3 weeks ago I was out of patience and nice.
Begging God for movement.
In 2 weeks i'll be packing up my office.
In 3 weeks i'll be in Florida. Post-Thanksgiving coma. Shopping with my favorite person.
In 3 weeks and 3 days i'll be walking into the offices of True North as an employee.
A Graphic Designer.
God is so good.
(!!!)
Just 3 weeks ago I was out of patience and nice.
Begging God for movement.
In 2 weeks i'll be packing up my office.
In 3 weeks i'll be in Florida. Post-Thanksgiving coma. Shopping with my favorite person.
In 3 weeks and 3 days i'll be walking into the offices of True North as an employee.
A Graphic Designer.
God is so good.
I stop to pray. A lot.
I've realized my need for Him
and how. much. better. life is when
it's not up to me.
I make myself run because TURKEY TROT.
I deep clean things. Often.
Close friends feel farther away
and family can't get here soon enough.
I've been researching costume ideas
for all the parties I'm not attending.
I wear the same tan flats every day.
Every. Day.
I've become grossly aware of how much I sweat
when in stressful situations (i.e. interviews).
Any excuse to give my hair one more day is
the perfect excuse.
I daydream about the kind of aunt I'll be,
the kind of flyer miles this baby is gonna get me,
and how incredibly far I am from ever having my own.
My skin has gotten it's act together.
I don't feel the need to wear a mask of foundation.
My moisturizer is the most expensive thing in my make-up bag.
I fill up my tank in case I want to skip town.
I do that thing where I avoid getting groceries
(because spending $7 on every meal feels less painful than
spending $50 at once.)
Loving myself feels less conditional.
Loving others seems less challenging.
Because lately, I care less about random expressed opinions
and more about what the people that actually love me have to say about my
character.
(Adulthood, amirite?)
I teeter on the edges of confidence and self-improvement and
salted-caramel-mochas ON A WEEKDAY. WHAT.
My room is in a permanent state of "that's where my DIY project is gonna go..
when I do it..
next weekend."
I shamelessly self-promote:
www.marielalaura.com
I've realized my need for Him
and how. much. better. life is when
it's not up to me.
I make myself run because TURKEY TROT.
I deep clean things. Often.
Close friends feel farther away
and family can't get here soon enough.
I've been researching costume ideas
for all the parties I'm not attending.
I wear the same tan flats every day.
Every. Day.
I've become grossly aware of how much I sweat
when in stressful situations (i.e. interviews).
Any excuse to give my hair one more day is
the perfect excuse.
I daydream about the kind of aunt I'll be,
the kind of flyer miles this baby is gonna get me,
and how incredibly far I am from ever having my own.
My skin has gotten it's act together.
I don't feel the need to wear a mask of foundation.
My moisturizer is the most expensive thing in my make-up bag.
I fill up my tank in case I want to skip town.
I do that thing where I avoid getting groceries
(because spending $7 on every meal feels less painful than
spending $50 at once.)
Loving myself feels less conditional.
Loving others seems less challenging.
Because lately, I care less about random expressed opinions
and more about what the people that actually love me have to say about my
character.
(Adulthood, amirite?)
I teeter on the edges of confidence and self-improvement and
salted-caramel-mochas ON A WEEKDAY. WHAT.
My room is in a permanent state of "that's where my DIY project is gonna go..
when I do it..
next weekend."
I shamelessly self-promote:
www.marielalaura.com