Led to understand
how you battle your heart
about me
the hardest thing to believe
to always remind
to never stop repeating
is that everyone,
(me,
I)
deserves one who is crazy about
them.
This whole time in the dark,
I've learned to accept
mediocre love,
average affections,
typical devotions
in exchange for an unsettling reminder
that i am
settling.
The question remains the same
as always asked before:
is this my last chance at
ever having something for me?
followed by the ensuing notion
that if i don't settle for this
i'll never get the chance to settle
again.
Again i want to know:
why do you agree
the need for me
to jump on everything
that comes my way,
as if the choice
was never really mine.