you know i'm in trouble when its the middle of the day
and i'm writing.
the thing is that today really sucks.
like yesterday did,
and the day before.
between:
horrible dreams
embarrassing grudges
growing distances
money that won't show
work i'd rather die on the way to
and the looming cloud that is my future
it's all a bit dark over here.
and i know that life's not fair
and that i am severely blessed.
i have nothing to complain about that i probably
can't fix myself
but really
i just need something.
anything.
that makes it come a little closer
if nothing else,
to making sense.