I'm stronger than i ever thought i would get
(its not just the lunges and bicep curls).
It's the kind of strength John warned me would build
beyond every rep i sweat in that gym.
The only thing harder than
shaking the undulation rope
is believing that i can.
"Ignore the pain!", he yells."This is easy!"
Every ounce of me wants to quit.
Every mucle in my body has walked away
5 minutes in
but there i am--squatting, sitting-up, stepping up, jabbing--
repeating that it's worth it.
15 pounds.
It's coming off slow.
But i'm not afraid of weigh-ins,
or anything, really.
I'm happy.
I'm happy.
And just like that, it all fell into place.
(its not just the lunges and bicep curls).
It's the kind of strength John warned me would build
beyond every rep i sweat in that gym.
The only thing harder than
shaking the undulation rope
is believing that i can.
"Ignore the pain!", he yells."This is easy!"
Every ounce of me wants to quit.
Every mucle in my body has walked away
5 minutes in
but there i am--squatting, sitting-up, stepping up, jabbing--
repeating that it's worth it.
15 pounds.
It's coming off slow.
But i'm not afraid of weigh-ins,
or anything, really.
I'm happy.
I'm happy.
And just like that, it all fell into place.
Just call me Mariela Messi.
We went to the middle of a field, just to enjoy the sun. Screw Mexico for taking away my best friend for a year and 3 months, but thank God for the epic reunion that was this weekend.
so i think i'll keep him.
is saltwater: sweat, tears, and the sea. -Isak Dinesen
That's how much John the MMA fighter thinks I'll lose by August 1st.
40 pounds - what I weigh now = 180 pounds (which is still heavier than most girls I know).
Today, I only lasted 30 minutes before passing out.
"No one comes in here on their first day and lasts the full two hours."
Two hours?...I can't do anything for two hours.
"By the end of the summer, you'll run circles around this gym. It'll take an hour just to break a sweat."
Like anything in the future, it's far.
Sunday was my last drink of soda for the next three months.
I'm also fasting from fast food.
It's not a crazy diet fad or a desprate attempt at health--
it's common sense.
It's time I start using my body for what it's for:
not a junk receptacle or something I just have to get over.
It's where I live 100% of my time, more than Ree's hall or Bluffton, SC.
I have no choice but to love it.
I have no option but it treat it best.
This means spending lots of time with John.
This means reigning my cravings.
This means doing what I have to do way before doing what I want.
I've been think about this alot, and then I saw Rich's article.
All I can do is be the best version of myself I can be.
I don't wanna ever become those people that obssess about their weight loss, as if it's the only thing going on in my life.
No thanks.
Progress has never been my friend though, and if i'm not constantly reminded of it, i'll never get where i'm going.
It's never been a better time.
40 pounds - what I weigh now = 180 pounds (which is still heavier than most girls I know).
Today, I only lasted 30 minutes before passing out.
"No one comes in here on their first day and lasts the full two hours."
Two hours?...I can't do anything for two hours.
"By the end of the summer, you'll run circles around this gym. It'll take an hour just to break a sweat."
Like anything in the future, it's far.
Sunday was my last drink of soda for the next three months.
I'm also fasting from fast food.
It's not a crazy diet fad or a desprate attempt at health--
it's common sense.
It's time I start using my body for what it's for:
not a junk receptacle or something I just have to get over.
It's where I live 100% of my time, more than Ree's hall or Bluffton, SC.
I have no choice but to love it.
I have no option but it treat it best.
This means spending lots of time with John.
This means reigning my cravings.
This means doing what I have to do way before doing what I want.
I've been think about this alot, and then I saw Rich's article.
All I can do is be the best version of myself I can be.
I don't wanna ever become those people that obssess about their weight loss, as if it's the only thing going on in my life.
No thanks.
Progress has never been my friend though, and if i'm not constantly reminded of it, i'll never get where i'm going.
It's never been a better time.
