because it's the day i stop avoiding the future.
today i realized the grad school of my dreams has my masters program.
somewhere in between "yeah right" and "you can do anything you put your mind to"
i decided:
I'm going to apply.
Mr. Forbes is right: the worst they can do is say no.
but if they say yes...
well..
I might die before I actually get there.
Here's to God and the crazy things He wants for us.
today i realized the grad school of my dreams has my masters program.
somewhere in between "yeah right" and "you can do anything you put your mind to"
i decided:
I'm going to apply.
Mr. Forbes is right: the worst they can do is say no.
but if they say yes...
well..
I might die before I actually get there.
Here's to God and the crazy things He wants for us.
just picnicking at work. NBD.
when great songs don't have great videos.
was really great.
54 hits in one day
(almost 2000 total).
Popped some tags for some great new kicks.
Met with the best boss at Union College (ashley barber. i don't want her to go.)
Saw Yowit hoop.
Had picnics all over the place.
Fixed things.
54 hits in one day
(almost 2000 total).
Popped some tags for some great new kicks.
Met with the best boss at Union College (ashley barber. i don't want her to go.)
Saw Yowit hoop.
Had picnics all over the place.
Fixed things.
Found gold.
Had lunch with George Foreman.
Skyped the ones that are really far.
And best of all..
200 is about to be HISTORY.
God. Answers. Prayer.
I'm exhausted.
The pile of things to be done stands taller than I ever will.
I don't remember what it's like to not hate being outside
or second guess what anyone tells me.
Friends have grown blurry and clear in opposite directions.
16 years of schooling and I still can't manage time.
I get excited about silly things, like going to target and new shampoo.
I don't like anything I have to read.
I don't let God be my crutch
because it's too easy and life is about struggle,
as if I need something else to kill myself fighting.
Lies would be unnecessary if we were more confidant.
More realistic.
More accepting.
I am the only person getting in the way of the number I want to be
and the hardest thing to do is tell myself to step aside.
I can't commit to anything:
that costs more than $10.
that I decide to wear in the morning.
that is more than a day away.
and the more time I spend away from the beach,
the longer i'll want to stay when i get there.
this is what winter does to me:
it freezes a haze over
the things I should stay away from the most
and the things I should hold on to for survival.
The pile of things to be done stands taller than I ever will.
I don't remember what it's like to not hate being outside
or second guess what anyone tells me.
Friends have grown blurry and clear in opposite directions.
16 years of schooling and I still can't manage time.
I get excited about silly things, like going to target and new shampoo.
I don't like anything I have to read.
I don't let God be my crutch
because it's too easy and life is about struggle,
as if I need something else to kill myself fighting.
Lies would be unnecessary if we were more confidant.
More realistic.
More accepting.
I am the only person getting in the way of the number I want to be
and the hardest thing to do is tell myself to step aside.
I can't commit to anything:
that costs more than $10.
that I decide to wear in the morning.
that is more than a day away.
and the more time I spend away from the beach,
the longer i'll want to stay when i get there.
this is what winter does to me:
it freezes a haze over
the things I should stay away from the most
and the things I should hold on to for survival.
I hate you, Kanye. But I love you so much.
