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Psalm of a Fat Girl

I want nothing more than torunfree from every tie that has kept meto youto themto the ones that hurt the most.if nothing else were to cometrue for me againi'd give it upfor the moment where i canbeat home in this skin,shed the feelingthat this body is temporary.it won't change tomorrow.while i have to learned to fakethe confidence i possessyou've taught me the one...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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my nieveity will keep me warm--i don't believe in winter. it can't snow on me.i'm not who i was and won't be who i thought,where the past meets an unprotected heartand the future can't reach beyond my guards.you, and everything that meanscould never weaken these kneesagain. and againi want to fall into something darkto deceive myself into feelingwhat i won't. i should be...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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I'd rather not rememberthe nights nothing could smooth the edges.not left to be alone,but rather chose this for myselfbecause of reasons picked.Picked the way out of fallingfor something greatavoiding the slightest chanceat an ending,the way around fixing the thingsi've never wanted to work again.Affections will never find meas they never seem to end wellor at least i never stay long enoughto let them....

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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Here we are again.medizzy from spinning truthsclumsy from holding so many at oncedismayed to find it falling.youhold me still for just enough remind me that i'm only humanensure me that no one lacks this flaw. ...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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If not for love For someone, too For keeping a heart Like mine is keptAnd not for life A passion beyond The strength to live To break all boundsAnd not for Grace I forget to be thankful I remember too late He fades, like thingsWhat have I to offer to You Big Everywhere EverythingAs a reason for living? A truth A revolution A...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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From here,i can see all the thingsyou'd rather hide among the others.the numbers we carry in our bags full of history(books and past)often hidden beneath layersattempting to hidecovered by intentions to warm:we've all become one in the same.i hide an affection for comfortanything willing to help easethe search for a fill.for you, maybe an aversion to anything too honest, too realtoo easy to...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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Everyone decidesevery morningthat todaywill bedifferent.I'll eat right.go on a walk.talk to god.and the lonely girl.today i'll change20 years of good intentionsinto a lifetimeof good deeds.yesterday was a mistake.i lost focus,plus there's so much going on.today, though,i'll be the personi had intended to bebut got toobusy.distracted.tired.today is the day thatwill make the ultimate difference.and when i go to sleep tonighti'll know it was worth.today...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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Sing a new song to the one who deserves the gift more than anyone who always receives it.I will dust off the piano keysand give them purpose.I will use every part of methat you've made for praiseand find a way to show youwhat a good work you've done in me.Despite the doubt that i let come inand crowd the places You've claimed,and the...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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Somewhereonce there was a place i would goknowing you'd be more than willingto keep every promise you've everwrittenbetweenits not that you're not there anymoreits not that you liedits not that you've left meherethisnot really a matter of what i needor an arguement of whether or notyou've done enough formeandnever has it only been me that my decisions have affectedthey reach the ends of...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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Led to understandhow you battle your heartabout methe hardest thing to believeto always remindto never stop repeatingis that everyone,(me,I)deserves one who is crazy aboutthem.This whole time in the dark,I've learned to accept mediocre love,average affections,typical devotionsin exchange for an unsettling reminderthat i amsettling.The question remains the sameas always asked before:is this my last chance at ever having something for me?followed by the ensuing...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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Same product, different label.At some point i will change your mindabout girls like me.i'm not desperatei have a lifei'm motivated to get the things i wanti'm driven to have what i need.There are pletny that share their loveand hateand indifferencebut who could say they aren't in the sameexempt from the affections of surrounding.my character could be multipliedin someone much easier to look onand...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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God is my shepherdthere's nothing i should want, i always find somethingi refuse to rest in the greenest of fieldsbesides the quietest of water.regardless of my stubborn pride,he renews my withered strengthwhile guiding me down the right pathi make my own way insteadmissing my opportunity to honor Himinstead ruining a perfect plan.I fear the dark valleyi do not trust you are with me--I...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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Save me from myself.i'm in a circle of mistakes and redemptioni seem to have forgottenonce upon a moment i knewthat as much as i doubt youi've lead myself to this holeas much as i doubt myselfi've left you to be hereyou've never once proved me rightonly fools do this without You.I've only pretended to forgivemuch more attractive than my grudgei've only played the...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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Godstares into the heart of my human-nesswhat a messHis creation our devotion to ruintrying to find a truthor even a longing for oneand all He's found in me is the messi've madekeptof the charity he intended.Ihave let the weight of vicecloud the rooms of judgement He's built so carefullyrunning away from eyes thatsearch for a need,and I,Ihave learned to self-supply. ...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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Impression:Pass me.take one quick lookand a couple good ones.Make the assumption you needto continue on your way with a piece of me.Reputation:They talk.I let them,can't stop themit's a sort of truthmy actions lead them to believe.Legacy:Remember/Forgottenfor all i've done/haven't,forever an example of how to beor always avoid to end up. ...

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Psalm of a Fat Girl

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I won't hold back the unkindly words to YouYou deserve the right to hear honest crieslisten and act,see and changethe pains that remain from lies,from heavy forges of fact.I'm awakeinsides moved with the beliefs of lack--refusing to believe I've remained rejected by You.Unfailing love,winning glory,endless comapssion,not for one moment could you walk awayalways, instead, clearing the stalks to unreachable Truth. ...

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